18/01/10 Monday 4:24pm
Hi guys(whoever that reads this blog). haven't been updating for quite awhile. life's a total boredom. yeah but blame it on no one else. it's myself who refused to go out with friends. sorry to those who i've rejected :P anyways. i don't know how to explain but i'm actually not expecting school to start because it seems to me that a few other kranjians are going NJC too.. don't get me wrong but i really wanted to go somewhere foreign to start afresh. there's many spots that i wanted to hide.. the past that i don't want to mention it anymore. but, it's okay still. i'll be strong! since God has already fulfill his promise, i'll fulfill mine too. gotta get edusave scholarship on sunday @ unity sec. withdrawing those money. yes all. money can't satisfy me.. so what's the use of keeping so much money inside my bank? anyway, ER programme this year would be more tiring and challenging for me. but since it's a challenge, no reason to back off right? (plus i've already signed that committment) gotta be a FULL-TIME ranger from on onwards. A ranger that shines for God. :) oh yes, i've also sold myself to KSJ as a SNCO. so this means i've to attend training on sat, attend SJAB events, attend service on sat, attend ERs on sunday. WOW. busy 2010. stressed.. i wonder if choosing NJC was a correct choice. :( STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz.. ..
will be going for JLTA camp this march 4d3n $100 and Cebu phillipines mission trip $500-800? T.T anyways, God will provide :)
2009 hasn't been a good year as i'd been busy with my os and emoing. so, i shall clear off my debts in 2010!! time to serve, seriously.
sometimes i feel that as a Christian, it really restricts alot of my freedom and personal rights. E.g. i cannot play poker with friends, have to be sensitive when i'm talking to friends, cannot go out with guys alone.. even when thanksgiving i always am afraid what my peers will think of me. but when i think of salvation, that perfect gift, i'll tell myself that it's all worth it.
10 more days to school reopen for jc1. :( wanted to play longer.. sigh. don't think will be blogging anymore and will be clozing down this blog 1 day before school reopens. so this means i cannot watch hai pai tian xin anymore!! argh.. T.T
i seriously hope i can find new friends in jc1 because i don't want to live in the past. let history be history.
4.43pm. ^^
Monday, January 18, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Glory to the King!
wednesday 13.01.10 11:47am
received my GCE o level results on monday. i couldn't sleep well the previous nights as i slept at around 4 plus and woke up at 8 plus. was kinda nervous on monday. mummy wanted to accompany me to school cause she said she wanna give me support and faith. i hesitated and asked a few frens whether parents can go. most said cannot thus mummy went lot 1 shopping while waiting for me :( met up with mary in school foyer and went up together. was super nervous and i dared not look at any teachers.. settled down and wanted to give out some souvenirs to friends but couldn't cause the hall was SUPER messy! sat down and clenched my fists real tight.. all of a sudden mr kong appeared and told mary that she did very well and was one of the top students. i dared not look at mr kong until he approached me and told me not to be so stress. he said i did "not bad". he said the results to me maybe is not very good but to him is "not bad" le. i was like.. HUH? not bad meaning??? 9? 10? everyone was like so excited clapping their hands while i stoned there, depressed and hopeless. the top 12 students namelists quickly appeared and i was super happy for yanrong!! :) many 2c'07 and 4f'09 were the top!! :D gradually the names and pictures appeared one by one.. at that moment, my hopes were gone, my dreams were dashed. i was finding reasons to comfort myself as well as trying to get that faith back. finally, the top 2 students pictures appeared.. I SAW MY FACE.. i was like "HUH? SERIOUS NOT?!" i looked at mary and she looked back at me. everything seemed like a dream. it happened so FAST.. straight after i got my results got people coming to "interview" me and i couldn't turn them down even though i was intending to talk to other frens.. mrs ram instructed mary, joyce, qyraisha and me to go NJC.. that's my dream school.. :) thanked a few teachers.. NOT all cause the scene was super CHAOTIC and i felt super REGRET and bad deep inside.. mdm yong wanted me to write a "gang xiang" for her =.=!! cause i really did had HUGE difficulties coping with HMT.. anyways. my result:
English B3
Amaths A1
EmathsA1
Physics A1
Chemistry A2
Biology A1
Combined humanities A1
Chinese A1
Higher chinese A2
L1R5=7
L1B4=6
net score=3 :)
firstly, english i was super contended already cause my english standard was way LOUSY.. :)
next, A maths + E maths wasn't a surprise cause i've 100% confidence after sitting for the papers
physics and biology was expected..
CHEMISTRY i wanna CRY!! A2???!! like HOW? it's the paper i had most confident in. probably the marks for A1 is 90? haha. i found out the reason anyway. it was SPA that ruined my A1..( sorry Miss Kho!!! ) :(
Combined humanities!!! A1!!! SUPER HAPPY UNTIL I CAN JUMP DOWN!! MY SKILLS WERE TOTALLY WRONG AND MY L5s WERE STUPIDLY WRITTEN. after taking the papers i've already thought of what to say to mrs ram.. cause i'm 100% sure i'll let her down.. humanities had been plaguing me for the past few months.. Thank God!!! :)
Higher chinese was another MIRACLE!! i've got almost 50% of the zhong he tian kong wrong and the compre mcqs wrong and i still secured that A2??!! Glory to God!! ^^
hehe.
found out that i could actually choose any JCs cause the minumum for Hwa chong and RI was 3 too. haha. but definitely not going there. i'll die. as compared to those 10A1s 9A1s 8A1s and 7A1s, i'm just nothing. probably a small fry?
okay. agreed to go back to school to help tutor the sec 4s humanities and help out for IFAC trainings. :)
heard peiling and junwei will be taking the OTC course. :) jia you people! ^^
thanks a million for those who actually smsed/called me to ask about my results. i finally know so many people are concerned abt me. :))) thanks to tim, i can share my testimony on sat!! ^^
will be chionging my bible merits today and tomorrow. gonna get my BMA on sat!! WAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12;13pm.
received my GCE o level results on monday. i couldn't sleep well the previous nights as i slept at around 4 plus and woke up at 8 plus. was kinda nervous on monday. mummy wanted to accompany me to school cause she said she wanna give me support and faith. i hesitated and asked a few frens whether parents can go. most said cannot thus mummy went lot 1 shopping while waiting for me :( met up with mary in school foyer and went up together. was super nervous and i dared not look at any teachers.. settled down and wanted to give out some souvenirs to friends but couldn't cause the hall was SUPER messy! sat down and clenched my fists real tight.. all of a sudden mr kong appeared and told mary that she did very well and was one of the top students. i dared not look at mr kong until he approached me and told me not to be so stress. he said i did "not bad". he said the results to me maybe is not very good but to him is "not bad" le. i was like.. HUH? not bad meaning??? 9? 10? everyone was like so excited clapping their hands while i stoned there, depressed and hopeless. the top 12 students namelists quickly appeared and i was super happy for yanrong!! :) many 2c'07 and 4f'09 were the top!! :D gradually the names and pictures appeared one by one.. at that moment, my hopes were gone, my dreams were dashed. i was finding reasons to comfort myself as well as trying to get that faith back. finally, the top 2 students pictures appeared.. I SAW MY FACE.. i was like "HUH? SERIOUS NOT?!" i looked at mary and she looked back at me. everything seemed like a dream. it happened so FAST.. straight after i got my results got people coming to "interview" me and i couldn't turn them down even though i was intending to talk to other frens.. mrs ram instructed mary, joyce, qyraisha and me to go NJC.. that's my dream school.. :) thanked a few teachers.. NOT all cause the scene was super CHAOTIC and i felt super REGRET and bad deep inside.. mdm yong wanted me to write a "gang xiang" for her =.=!! cause i really did had HUGE difficulties coping with HMT.. anyways. my result:
English B3
Amaths A1
EmathsA1
Physics A1
Chemistry A2
Biology A1
Combined humanities A1
Chinese A1
Higher chinese A2
L1R5=7
L1B4=6
net score=3 :)
firstly, english i was super contended already cause my english standard was way LOUSY.. :)
next, A maths + E maths wasn't a surprise cause i've 100% confidence after sitting for the papers
physics and biology was expected..
CHEMISTRY i wanna CRY!! A2???!! like HOW? it's the paper i had most confident in. probably the marks for A1 is 90? haha. i found out the reason anyway. it was SPA that ruined my A1..( sorry Miss Kho!!! ) :(
Combined humanities!!! A1!!! SUPER HAPPY UNTIL I CAN JUMP DOWN!! MY SKILLS WERE TOTALLY WRONG AND MY L5s WERE STUPIDLY WRITTEN. after taking the papers i've already thought of what to say to mrs ram.. cause i'm 100% sure i'll let her down.. humanities had been plaguing me for the past few months.. Thank God!!! :)
Higher chinese was another MIRACLE!! i've got almost 50% of the zhong he tian kong wrong and the compre mcqs wrong and i still secured that A2??!! Glory to God!! ^^
hehe.
found out that i could actually choose any JCs cause the minumum for Hwa chong and RI was 3 too. haha. but definitely not going there. i'll die. as compared to those 10A1s 9A1s 8A1s and 7A1s, i'm just nothing. probably a small fry?
okay. agreed to go back to school to help tutor the sec 4s humanities and help out for IFAC trainings. :)
heard peiling and junwei will be taking the OTC course. :) jia you people! ^^
thanks a million for those who actually smsed/called me to ask about my results. i finally know so many people are concerned abt me. :))) thanks to tim, i can share my testimony on sat!! ^^
will be chionging my bible merits today and tomorrow. gonna get my BMA on sat!! WAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12;13pm.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
entangled
wednesday 6.1.10 12:45am
i'm confused. deep in thoughts. results are coming out in a few days time. ain't prepared yet. i'm still lost somewhere..
i'm confused. deep in thoughts. results are coming out in a few days time. ain't prepared yet. i'm still lost somewhere..
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