end of 2009

today is the end of 2009. it may seem anticipating to some people, however, it may also be dreadful for the rest. for me, it just marks the begining of a new battle. a new battle against the current-self. i don't deny the fact that i've changed so much this year. probably due to my strong desire to excel in studies, i've actually became so anti-social and introverted. when i browsed through the photos which i took with my friends and the cards that they gave it to me, i felt a sense of regret and of shame washing over me. i don't know how to face the world. i'm just hiding behind the computer, like a loser, watching digimon and playing maplesea. my life is totally of boredom. recently i kept seeing people tagging about the o lvls result. it's only a mere 2 weeks from now. i've actually forgotten about that. i;ve thought that i lived in total freedom and have nothing to worry and fear. but my fear seemed to awaken yesterday. i knew i would not do well for various subjects and would sure let some teachers down. and everything just became a dream. there, i saw i've got 11 points, having nowhere to go. i was ruined, i told myself. i'm a goner. i was demoralized and totally lost hope. until the moment i opened my eyes, the pain in there never ease. i don't know whether this dream would become true or not. this year, i had many dreams about results etc. i was just so worry about all tests, MYE and EOY. my dreams are never positive anyway. this was the part which made me even more depressed and hopeless. i hope this time round the dream would be a false lead. i really want to do well.. i've watched my friends get their results, postings and classes. it seemed to be easy but to them, it's totally a new thing. a new life in fact. having to face new people and difficulties which awaits them. this is the challenge to life. having to live means to anticipate change. i always shared about trusting God and having faith in Him in rangers. i have to practice what i preached. whenever i began to think about my mistakes in the papers, i would always divert my attention to my own testimony. that is trusting God. He has a plan for us; plans to prosper us and not to harm us. plans to give us a hope and future. jeremiah 29:11. i would never forget this verse because this is one which inspires me all along. all i've to do is to trust God and leave everything to him. trusting God means having peace and no worries. i need to have the strength. i need to have that faith. this year is one of promise-breaking, lies and disdainful acts. i hated myself whenever those "unholy" words emerge from my mouth. I Seriously Hate It. i've not been saying those stuff for such a long time. and everything just...... i was ruined the minute those words came out. it just became a habit. I've to CHANGE! will not be going for watch-night service today. rather, i will be staying at home, facing at this computer, this screen, typing my new-year resolution. i believe my Lord is a fair God. He was, He is, and He will be. :)

this world is crazy

friday 11/12/09 10:37pM

36 hours to HK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woolala!
going to hk soon!! haha. just received an email from gu zhang about our plans in hk. it's a long list and i could see "breakfast", "lunch" and "dinner" being planned!! wakakaka!! :D:D can't wait to..... *anticipating*
anyway, went to jeremiah's house again today to tutor him science. went there by myself!! took lrt to pending and walked to his house. scorching sun!! his mother wasn't in. -.- i was super scared of his dog thus had to ask him to lock the dog inside their room. sorry arh. :( the dog too BIG!! :( his mind wasn't right. he kept thinking of maplestory etc and kept asking me to give him my acc! =.+!! *exasperated!* anyway, left the house 5 minutes earlier since his mum wasn't in :x!! took lrt to lot 1 then mrt to boon lay. went jurong point to look for jobs. sigh. walked for 1 hr++ finally applied for 2 jobs and 2 more still considering whether to call tomorrow. the pay is abit low la. but it's okay. :) hope they'll call me asap before i leave for HK!!! :( reached yewtee and bought dinner home! bought the marcroni since the uncle kept pestering me. super little lar. i think i nid to eat like 3 bowls then enough. =.= scam my money!! played maple etc. mum and dad came home from JB and bought super many things!! mum bought 2 shirts for me. $30++ worth of chocolates from action city!!! (don't even think about it!) ahah. :)

i think my dad's the best father in the world!! he sponcered the trip to HK ( though at first my grandma said she would sponcer ) $3k plus!! plus he changed money for us about $400! i got $200/$400!! WAKAKAKAA!! $.$ he said he's getting his bonus tomorrow thus my mum dragged him along to JB to buy stuff + shopping. poor daddy! HAHAHA! sunday morning he would have to wake up early as us to drive us and grandma etc to changi airport!! o.O!!

anyway, my scholarship letter came a few weeks ago. daddy opened my letter!! luckily inside never reveal the amount i'll be getting :D! another letter came yesterday and my dad opened it too!!! =.= inside says i would receive $200. dad thought it's myscholarship =.=. it's the EAGLES award bursary. haha my scholarship would be $500. total $700!! :D will be keeping it a secret. not intending to let my parents know if not.................. shhh... :x my dad won't allow me to work and my mum would find ways to scam my money!! :xxx

woot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HKHKHKHKHK!!!!!!!!!!! :D

3 more days to HK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thursday 10.12.09 12:22pm

yucks
i'm going crazy!!! holidays are a total rubbish to me cause i'm seriously slacking! although i'm currently working ( as private tutor ) but the dates and time are so unstable! an hour for like $15 is cool but the duration is like only 2 hours?!! so super short and i don't know what to do next. woke up super early yesterday and went to cck stadium to swim (on an empty stomach!) it was super disturbing cause i'm having stomach cramps. sun tanned and i rested on the ground. guess what. i was so tired that i've dozzed off unintentionally! to my surprise, the skin on my elbows tore MADLY today!!! T.T gotta stop sun tanning if i wan to prevent any skin cancer :(

after swimming, went to yewtee to buy lunch. guess what, it rained so heavily and i've just finished bathing!!goodness.... called daddy and he drove me home =.= went out again at around 2:40pm to go to jeremiah's house to tutor him science. hais. the process was rubbish. he was easily distratced and kept talking to me about maple story and stuff. i had to REN and force a smile to continue teaching. 2 hours passed like housefly. i don't think he benefitted from it anyway. p4 syllabus was weird. gotta change my method of teaching! :) brainstorming on it later. there's another make up session tomorrow cause i'll be at hk next week. yup.

called nanny house yesterday to look for xinee. apparently she had left for a cruise. (WITHOUT TELLING ME !!) i still thought i could start a session with her asap! she's going to hk on the same date as me. sigh. how am i going to tutor her then? :( mummy's a liar, a promise breaker, an everything!!! she promised to let me work for her $5 an hour today and tomorrow but she changed her mind yesterday! was super mad thus quarrelled with her. she thought i only want money thus wanted to give me $100. crazy. i then don't want her money. i only want to earn my OWN money.

crazy world!! gonna pack my luggage and play maplesea later. lazy to do anything. gotta find a job with michelle once i return from HK! IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!!! ( daddy is also crazy. he don't allow me to find a job!!! ) but i heck le. i'm rotting like madness!!! argh!
gonna swim tomorrow morning and go for tutoring. :)

ultra madness!!

photossssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

my last photo outside Kranji :)
没有这么小的头就不要戴那么小的帽子!!
from sec 2 juniors!!!!

steal our stuff huh mam?!

cuteeeeeeeeeeeee????????

cakes

salad

ice kachiang

ice cream neh!!

toppings :D

MY PRO 1ST!!!!!! word challenge

saaaaa

7.12.09 monday 8:14pm

hihi.
back to blog for awhile. went for POC yesterday morning. :)
woke up very early today to the crematory to witness my gong gong's cremation.
shall not ela on that.
headed to the quality hotel of singapore to have buffet lunch. quite ex. but the food was super nice. gonna rest tomorrow. had been running about these few days. nidda a rest.

Trust in Him

saturday 5.12.09 11.30pm

hmph.

hasn't been blogging the past few days cause i had nothing much to talk about. atc has commenced officially today. gave it a miss cause something happened at home. my grandfather passed away on 3rd dec 10.26pm. it was a total shock to all of us cause a phone call at around 9++pm startled almost the entire family. i wasn't very close to my grandfather(mother side) but i still had memories with him. i remember him giving me money when i was young and us eating the nuts during cny. he was still perfectly healthy this year's cny. and now.. i'm sure God is in control of everything. my grandfather had gone home to be with the Lord. :)
went to the casket tonight. just came back just now. tired.

i've finally found my jobs ( yes, JOBS )
applied for a restaurant job $5/hour but they haven call me.
tutoring my cousin p5 science $15 an hour next wed onwards :)
tutoring xinee p6 psle maths $5 an hour next thursday :DD ( yes i know the fee....... ) :x
*maid* job ---> do house work at home $5 per day ^^
gonna still find other jobs to keep me richer :D:D:D
maybe going to westmall/woodlands to find soon. :P

leaving for hk on sunday. who wants a souvenir? (my photograph with micky mouse!)

photos

sab and me
sab and me 2

sab and me 3

myself

cute????

my sis bought this for me!!!!!!1

xiao xiong bing gan

event at tampines (uncle and sister)

bryan and brandon

buying my long sleeve shirt

disgusted

poisoned

monday 30.11.09 10.23

aww.

hais. had diarrhoea just now. don't know what exactly was it that i've eaten wrongly :(
anyway, went out for badminton with sabrina in the morning 11-1pm. :D mummy booked the court for me! ^^ it's fun playing with sab cause our standard about the same.. :o it's super tiring too (to pick up the shuttles). we were both exhausted by the end of the day :) sweat like water hose(too exaggerated) went to yew tee to buy lunch with sab and went home. used the comp to watch shinchan and bathed etc. life's quite boring but i've a job!!!!!!!!!!!! :D woohoo. pay is low but i will work hard! :D

having a serious headache now. gonna watch my shinchan and rest soon. uploading some photos later :)

friday 27.11.09 11.09pm

wOoT!

spent a wonderful and 一个满载而归 de day out!
woke up at around 9am++ by my sister's laughters. =.='''
washed up and bought breakfast ----->meesiammmmmmm
used the comp and watched the crayon shinchan on tudou. :) slacked until 12++ and bathed. mummy cooked lunch! O.o
went out at around 1.15pm. daddy drove us to clementi to meet up with my grandma, sister, aunt and uncle. mummy took mrt from there to orchard.ah ma sat at the front seat while my uncle, aunt, 2 sisters, bro and i squeezed at the back seats!! super squeezy can!! my brother's hippo leg kept kicking my shoe and it's super noisy in the car!! -.-''
reached tampines mall at around 2:30pm!! called my cousins and they were still bathing?! shopped around the mall until 3 plus when my cousins bryan and brandon, along with my 1st aunt came. went to giordano to buy a long sleeve shirt. 1st aunt bought for me!! :D:D
went to tampines one and shopped. saw daddy there and he gave us the kopitiam card. bought bread for snack. we bought the tong luo sao (doraemon eat that one!!) and it's super nice can!! $1.40 each. quite ex la.. went to hang ten and bought more clothes for the guys. long sleeve shirts. then headed for some event or some games and earned the vouchers. it's super fun the game! :S there are several cards with valcos, sticked to the walls and you have to reach for one to obtain a prize. so when we played, there were a few left, which were all high up. bryan carried brandon while my uncle carried my younger sister. haha. it's super exciting!!
while my uncle was queuing for some lucky draw, we went to a korean shop. everything was korean there. (obviously) but quite expensive though.
had dinner at kopitiam. bought ice jelly cocktail and chendol for dessert! yuM! :D:D
it was around 8:30pm and we had decided to go home. however, my 1st aunt passed by a shop and decided to go in to have a look. my uncle was super fed up cause he hates shopping. bought a thick windbreaker each!! haha!! foc cause my aunt paid for them!! ;D
took mrt home. went to 7eleven to buy drinks. :D
tomorrow's open house. probably going there during the afternoon to help out. :D
jia you kranji!!!!!!!! ^^

nitezzzzz

thursday 26.11.09 11.13pM.

hehe.

a well spent day :) woke up at around 8am++ in the morning to go to school to pay the money for the shao nian wen zai. daddy drove me to school ^^ reached school and saw yuhan sitting outside HOD room. paid the money and returned 5 bucks to yuhan for the taxi. went up to the sjab room and saw the girls preparing for the open house on sat. gave the sec 2 girls my tri sci books cause we promized to give. initially wanted to just pass the 3 down to tianen/huixian but they just took 1 each. -.- nevermind haha. gonna give the maths humans stuff to them too. o.O
took back my precious towel!!!!!! :D chatted awhile and returned to the hod room. haha.
played psp and then jiaying came and requested to let her play. around 10.30, i called daddy and he came to drove me home!! haha poor yuhan! x) went home and was exhausted. slept for an hour and bathed. daddy drove jon and i to babysitter house. met up with xinyi and kewei. xinyi got 166 while kewei got 168. xinyi was rather happy cause she thought she would retain. i had a hard time choosing schools for them... sigh. played with the baby and went to the market for lunch with them. bought bubble tea too. slacked for awhile at the house and took some photos. meddled with their laptop and went to rollerblade! haha i only fell down twice!!! :P
had dinner and yakult (for better digestion cause i was too full) mum and dad called and daddy came to fetch us home.

going out with my cousins and grandmother etc tomorrow!! to tampanies one or something like that. yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sab just smsed me to go for badminton(which i long ago promized her) on monday. probably booking a 2 hour slot..
promised the kids to go for bowling someday!! haha!! :D (since i had no friends to go out with!)
nitezzzzzzzz

kewei's dog-sally
ice-creammmmmmmmmmm

wanna have a bite?

look at jon...

whatcha looking at?

me after rollerblading-exhausted

zi lian a lil

baby cute ma?

wrOng choice

wednesday 25.11.09 8.46pM

boo.

i was woken up early in the morning at 8am++ by my sister. she woke me up to go to the stadium with her to swim. it's only like 8am in the morning and i was groaning at her.. argued to go later and blah blah.. left the house at 9:45am.. while walking, she asked me for 20 cents and i was like for what? gab said she wanted to rent a locker. i was like.. zzz dunnid lar. then we argued the entire journey there -.-'''
we were blessed with a wonderful sunny weather! guess what, gab saw valerie low and stared at her and valerie low was rather disturbed by the stare cause she didnt know my sister. then valerie saw me and was like waving at me. Lol. -.- chatted at the pool and swam. haha. gab was a noobie at swimming!! she swam in a funny manner :P taught her the breaststroke and free style. wanted to play the slide with her but there was just too many people. when it was about to be our turn, a boy and his sister came to queue. the boy seemed to have some mental illness and was having strange behaviour. he was standing beside me and kept wailing and struggling.. i was petrified at his behaviour and afraid that he would push me down the pool.. the guard allowed them to cut the queue and thus the boy and his siste went up together. we waited for like 10 minutes and my sister said forget it. as we walked away, we saw the two of them still up there pondering to slide down....... =.=!! hehe. wanted to borrow sunblock lotion from valerie for gab but valerie was nowhhere to be seen.. -.- swam for 10laps to and fro and went to suntan. gab was complaining about the sun and went to bathe. thank goodness she bathed first cause she took 45minutes! swam another 1 lap and went to bathe. walked to yew tee mac for lunch! wow chicken teppanyaki and seweed shaker fries!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUM! :D rq came and met us at yew tee mrt and we went home together. reached home at around 2pm and realized that i'd totally forgotten about the flagday!!!!!!!! LOl!!!!!! -.- decided not to go in the end cause i was too tired. played gunb and was too bored.. yanrong was right.. playing online game alone can bore u to the very dead end........ :( watched shinchan and slacked..

tmorrow's psle results are out!! kewei and xinyi will be going to get their results and select their schools tomorrow!!!!! i am feeling super nervous now.. haha. though my turn was like 4 years back. :) going to babysitter house tomorrow!! HuRrAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

tuesday 24.11.09 6.31pm

haizzzz
grad night was eh... alright bah. turn out to be out of my expectations. hmm. food was not nice and the video montage was 5/10. somewhat felt abit leftout cause the rest were like taking photos all the way. sigh. the lucky draw was disappointing. i didn't win! :( junwei's expressions were funny! haha. i really pei fu valerie cause from head to toe ( except her own body ) is not she buy one. Lol. hais. bored. reached home yesterday at around 12am and gunb-ed until 1.30am and played dj max until i fell asleep. it was a tiring day!

i had really to plan and think of my holiday plans. though i'm not in need of money, but i really want to work! :( perhaps after my vacation. ? spent the whole day gunb-ing with some strangers and i finally ranked up! :D wooooo~ i simply love my avatar! tomorrow's flag day and i guess i should randomly go to a few areas to supervise.

i guess yesterday marked the end of the 4 years in kranji. dear friends whom i would probably not have the chance to meet up again and teachers: i wish your all the best in whatever you do and God bless . don't nid to remember me. yup..

no matter what, i really appreciate everything you guys have given me..

alisa:
this girl is really great. she never pang seh me or leave me out. she's abit kind of blur but surely is very hardworking! i remember her repeatedly asking me to go for class outings but was eventually rejected by me! but she'll never force me. i wish that she can find her dream jc/poly!

qianting:
LAsao. tomato! she's my best dude! she is obviously very emotional but i like her as an encourager! we quarrelled for umpteen times during lower sec for some stupid reasons but still, i thank God for this friend! :) through her, i learnt alot!!

yanrong:
potato/SIA wannabe/MAHsao/yellow girl. hmm. i don't know what should i say about her. yanrong's like a radio player; we definitely need 1 in our lives, but more than 1 will be disastrous. the world would be in catastrophe. :x i don't know why but whenever i'm with her, i just feel easy and i enjoy crapping with her!! wish that she could 1 day turn herself yellow (kidding) just hope that she can find her dream jc!!!

margaret:
mary oh mary. i like and hate her sometimes. i like her cause she's very motivating and hyper! but i do dislike it when she screams at my ear and sabo people! haha. no matter what,hope she can get into her dream jc. though we not very close as before, but still, she's my buddy forever!!

valerie low:
that blur sotong. she's the blurest person i had ever seen in my life. someone who takes 3 minutes to understand a joke and the one who sleeps while standing. o.O?! hehe. i will never forget this girl. when my friends neglect me, she's the one who i can find the courage to talk to. without her, i'm so so so so alone!! jia you okay. :)

sabrina:
this sa bi na is a great encourager. i would never forget how she wrote letters and sent smses to me to enourage me to eat more and talk more during sec 3. i think it's because of her i feel more confident in school. i would also never forget how she stood out for me when i was laughed at. i thank her for the trust in me. we definitely shared many secrets!! :xxx may she enter her dream jc with GOOD l1r5

jun wei:
i don't know why i'm writing about him here. but he's definitely one guy whom i'll never forget. i admire him for his talents and his willingness to share his knowledge. i remember how he encouraged me during the prize giving ceremony when i was super perplexed and depressed. he's also one guy whom i seriously detest. his stingy nature and his boasting sometimes really pissed me off. haha "king of A maths!" i hope that he an enter his dream jc and be the first person to invent the medicine to cure HIV. :D

siangning:
a motherly friend. she's mature and humourous. i fear her scoldings.. but i do like to hear her jokes! i admire her independence nature! rock on! :D

ying2:
mrs des! haha. she's one girl who definitely craps alot and like to gossip about people (opps). but she's the one in sjab whom i can share my troubles with and never leaves me alone!! :D i'll never forget when she called me the day before training at 10pm and talked crap until 11++.. i hope that she can find her desire jc!

peiling:
KENsao haha. she's one good fren. a super rich one. go out with her must bring alot of money!! haha. thank her for always lending me money and motivating me!! thanks for the carrot too!!

sumin:
chinese-PRO! this girl has a talent in chinese language! borned talented! i seriously envy her good chinese results! also her character was awesome! a very neutral person and always talk sense. she doesn't lie much and i trust her alot!! won't get angry too!! a good mother-in-the-future!!

siying:
my team member. she's a very hardworking girl. this can be seen from her tremendous leap in her results! in sjab too! though i always scold her in trainings, making her super demoralize, but she didn't take it to heart. :) a fan of pikachu! :) thundershock!! haha

NC one'09:
hehe. it might be fate that brought us together as a team. i'm terribly sorry for scolding your like a maniac every training, making ur cry etc. haha. just hope ur won''t hate me. :x it might also be fate that dragged us apart, not being able to be your commander during fac. but still, the roots of training are bitter, but the fruit is SWEET!! jia you najihah, tianen, shiying, azimah and sec 1s!!

cindy:
a very sweet girl. haha. she always say i'm very good to her last time but now kept saying i'm very bad. maybe. haha tooused to scolding people le? :x she's hardworking but just need to stay focused and motivated all the time!! may God bless her in her studies! :D

michelle:
the girl who i just got quite close to nearing exam periods. walked home with her everyday after school :) i will never forget my call list flooded with her phone number during os and the times i blasted at her for being so annoying. haha. x) jia you!

ms koh:
a teacher whom i fear.. though she looks small but sure is LOUD and FAST! she's actually a very nice and caring teacher. i thank her for her efforts for us and her green efforts! :D

ms lee:
a High Class teacher. i remember her for her heels and tidying of her hair. i also hope that i would be able to receive that embrace of congratulation from her!! :D

mrs ram:
a very rich and cool teacher!! she has high expectations on me and always commend on my work. she's a reason i worked hard for in os cause she promised to make a banner for the six pointer!! haha!! i hope i wun disappoint her cause i might get an A2 or B3 for humanz..:(

ms lim (L cube):
a very caring and humourous physics teacher! she used to be very fierce and scary in the past but now she's definitely a very friendly teacher who has great rapport with our class!

ms wong:
the cat lover and act cute teacher! i always looked forward to her lessons because we get to win CHOs from her!! :D she's a very very very caring teacher who really care for me.. i remember her going to yew tee mac to do the common test with me and smsing me when she's on maternal leave! a very kind teacher too!!

mdm mah:
the very "hip" teacher! kept teaching us new stuff! i remember her "don't be LOL" and her "zao xia"!! haha.. she's a teacher who always motivate us and nobody dares talk during her lesson!! super cool right? :)

mr kong:
the muscleman teacher. though he looks very unkind and unfriendly, but in fact he's a very caring teacher!! he always motivate me during PE lessons and during Napfa! :D

mr yeo ch
"good day" cher! a teacher whom i quite scared of cause sometimes he looks very fierce.. though he had left kranji, but the legacy he left behind is permanent!! xD

mr yeo ws:
a teacher who always get bullied by the class... he always spoonfeed us with SEQ FEEL by great demand! he's also a very caring teacher who always say "geraldine, you must eat more" last time and now " very good, you look very healthy" haha..

ms lai:
a very humourous eng cher! i always look forward to her lessons cause she likes to talk about "charsiewbao" and "Boomz" haha!! she's also a very nice teacher who kept motivating me and helping me to improve my english.. :D

ms tan:
a very funny yet serious teacher. a doraemon lover too!!i thank her for the trust in me and handling to me the important role of a csm2009. xie xie ni!

ms vanitha:
a very caring teacher! i remember her telling me to sms her my meals everyday last year!! haha. she's also a very funny teacher! i enjoy her presence in sjab!!

ms ratna:
a very fierce-looking teacher.. but she's actually very warm and kind if you know her well!

well, i hope i haven forget anybody!!! rock on, guys! i'll keep your deep down inside!!! :D



anyway, now's 9pm. just finished my dinner. super full still had to help my sister finish her sausages and tomatoes!! :( bloated! shall swim tomorrow. sun tanning!!!!! :D:D



i believe God is great.

dread it

i'm full of aches all over my body.. :( well, hope the pain do ease tomorrow! it's 12.42AM now and i don't even feel a single bit of tiredness.. tomorrow's gradd night and i'm.. hm.. well.. having mixed feelings? i do feel a lil nervous (like for what?).. but am also filled with anticipation! for the food! *i paid $76 eh..* sigh. anyway, the ssc camp was erm.. okay.. initially i thought it would be super duper boring cause i knew many people wouldn't turn up for it (yeah i was right, hor _____?) thus i just packed a lil bag with some clothes and a towel(i left it in sjab room!!! how careless!!) and went for the camp.. dodge ball was.. terrifying and horrendous!! the boys were full of power plus turbo? sigh. played like 1 round and told myself it's enough. -.-''' saw some sec 2s playing table tennis thus asked yanrong and felicia to play too. yeah it's boring too.. after that, we played the "who what huh" suggested by SIA wannabe. initially only 5 people was playing but later more people joined. it was awesome! poor felicia and daniel chia.. haha! OH YEAH! thanks for that slap, yanrong. i will return it someday, muahahaha!!(i noe u're reading my blog-.-) watched the eldds concert. nice acting, val!! first time see u act seh.. :D but the character super suit u!! xD had bbq for dinner.. nice lah the food.. long time never eat bbq food le.. ^^ watched the skit by sec 2s and blah blah blah.. played badminton with zhen yan rong and felicia then with zelia and gladys. super fun but the consequence is disastrous!! ( muscleaches) washed up and slept in the art room. super cold and hard.. like my heart.. nid to be warmer and softer.. :D didn't intend to overnight at school but.. sigh.. i missed my bed! next day, woke up quite early la.. went for training till like 9.30am and i left.. cannot take it.. was too tired and hungry :( went yew tee to buy food then went home and played gunb. Lols. :D went for church later. slept for 10 hrs yesterday. nice sleep. :D
okay shall blog till here.
i was rather astounded when i heard people saying they read my blog. i thought people had already forgotten about this blog. sighz.. now i'll have to watch ever single word i type. :(
haizz.. good avatar don't land u in good position sometimes.. people just kicked you and don't give you the chance to show them u're a noob. -.-'''

黑白

我感觉好累, 好累...
脑里突然一片空白
房里似乎没有了空气
心也似乎停止了跳动
闭上双眼却一片漆黑..


我该将这一切的一切画上一个句号
这个是最好的一个完结篇

和我的幻想说声再见!

GOLDEN TANN~

wednesday. woke up quite early today. had ham with bread for breakfast and headed to the cck stadium to swim. swam 10 laps to and fro. super duper fun! sun tanned for only half and hour and i am now golden tanned! :) haha. bathed and left at around 1.15pm and went to yew tee to buy lunch. bought mac value lunch mac spicy for jon and guess what.. we won the instant win mac spicy!! haha! i'm so lucky! :D came home and changed my bed sheets. being a super duper compassionate person, i helped my sister changed hers too! tiring!! cleaned up my room, got rid of those dusts and spider webs.. *eww* wanted to download maplesea but the stupid laggy computer didn't allow me to.. :( played psp and slacked.. hmm.. tomorrow's thursday already! 1 more day to ssc camp :D still not sure if i should stay overnight.. :(

anyway, xinyi just msn-ed me and told me her mum allow me to tutor her sister and her for free.. hmm. shall arrange for time! :)

is the world coming to an end?

today was awesome! went to babysitter hse today!!!! haha everyone was super excited.. yes! lunched at yew tee wif brother and bought a mini cake and a pokemon plush toy for xinee!! haha! wanted to buy ice cream but the salesperson at the ntuc said that they would melt fast.. took 307 wif my brother.. the bus ride was.. dizzy! kewei kept sending me funny messages like "woohoo" and "yay".. we were like.. diao
reached babysitter hse at 3pm and called the gang down!! haha kewei skipped school today and went to mac wif frens! xinee was super happy wif the present!! haha she said she 赚到了..haha!! xinyi was rather annoyed by the nickname i called her.. haha! 一时间改不了口!! spoke to them about their psle and eoy results respectively.. was rather worried for them.. xinyi told me she might retain or go NT.. such worrying kidss!!!!!!!!!!
i requested for both of them to allow me to tutor them for science and maths but when i spoke my request, xinee said she go toilet while xinyi said she's going to throw rubbish!!! *raging***
haha.. hope they will consider.. FREE okay!!! anyway my cousin bryan just gotten his sec 2 channeling course result.. so he's taking six subjects.. no AMaths... wif that stupid Home econs.. his mum was pissed with him.. thus, gab suggested that he take Amaths as a private student and learn outside from some tutor.. haha.. hope he will look for me!! $10 per hour kk!!!??
rollerbladed with those kids at the playground.. super embarrassing!! the kids knew how to rollerblade like some pro but i was like.. worse than a rookie!! needed them to hold me and pull me along..! :( but it was fun, still! went to the mama show to get some snacks and went to kewei's house to play with his dog.. first time seeing his dog.. super active!! super funny!! when my bro enter the house, the dog was like chasing afte him!! yes, after him ONLY!! super funny!! my bro alwaays thought he not afraid of dogs den act very pro but when the dog started to like smell him, he was like running around the house like a maniac!! SUPER FUNNY!!! the dog doesn't seem to target me but i think he loves me.. :D
headed back to babysitter house for dinner!! super nice dinner can!! :D super full.. my babysitter kept asking me to eat more! haha! :D
had ice cream and candies for dessert.. bloated! ^^
toook some photos and then daddy came to fetch us to lot 1 to watch 2012.. luckily he bought the tickets in the aftrtnoon.. cause by the time we reach there, the queue was way too long! like 20m!! hehe.. my bro bought combo 1 upsized while i bought green tea.. haha daddy super good!!! :D should come out more often with him!! $.$
the show was super nice.. there's like volcanic eruptions, tsunami, earthquake etc.. super NICE!! at first quite boring but towards the climax, it was super cool la.. the main charcters were super lucky to have survived all these devastations!! :) highly recommended!! :) super worth it.. many people *died* in that show.. haha.. some parts were funny.. :D
while we were heading home, daddy was like talking about the movie while he drive.. i was super scared.. like the movie.. i scared he suddenly hit something and the car just explode.. =.=''' but thank God, we reached home SAFE and SOUND!! hah.. holiday rocks!! :D
going to swim tomorrow.. prob in the afternoon since morning has not much sun for tanning.. :D cya!

sleep, i nid you!!

zombie.. today was a reckless day...... lack of sleep..


shall update tomorrow.........




人是那么的脆弱..
今天到养老院探望公公.. 比起上两个月我们看他时, 他憔悴了好多..好多.. 看着他有气没力的样子,我不知不觉有种害怕的感觉.. 好害怕他会突然闭上双眼......

now is 11.48pm.. so sian.. slept for 4 hours ytd.. i'm becoming a zombie! went for kspiration launch.. zzz so my work piece is that street lamp crap.. zzzzzzzzz so embarrassing.. that ying2 still laugh at me.. i'll not forget this!!! went to the NLB to borrow books.. borrowed comic wif yuanfang n peiling.. so fun!! i like the way yuanfang spoke in canto!! SO COOL!! ultimately cool!! peiling was super funny too! :D

went home after that and had lunch.. went to church in e evening.. worship was as usual but i was too tired.. half awake during the sermon. :o went for dinner at yt wif dad n gab.. had noodles and watermelon for dinner.. ok..

msn-ed and stuff.. so shiok.. i chanced upon this email what starry angel stuff and i didn't know who was that.. initiated a convers. and it was joyce -.-''' haha crapped with her but she still didn't know who am i! haha fun! chatted with yan2 also.. haha.. thanks to her that i could apply for job!! :D stil waiting for reply though. chatted with shiying abt training stuff.. haha good luck pple.. also crapped with xinxian....... ahaha zyj....... :D

anyway saw the sec 3 posting.. cool.. congrats to those who got into their desired course.. :D mus work hard hor.. :)

今天心情好怪哦.. 不知怎么的考完试后还有一点想念读书的日子
也许是我想太多了吧! 虽然口头上说我恨不得快点离开学校,开始新生活; 但在心里也不知不觉有种牵挂.. 好怀念中一中二的那段日子.. 好怀念小六的那段日子.. 我从来没有想过自己也可以那么幸福.. 从小我就已经是孤独一行了.. 长的也没有怎么好看.. 说话时也不知道要怎么去讨好别人.. 人缘也不怎么好.. 有时我真觉得自己是不是在做梦.. 我竟然也可以有今天.. 真可笑.............
朋友也可以算是满天下! 在校朋友把我当成是"聪明人", 有什么问题不会就不耻下问来问我这个"朋友".. 其实我不求回报 ..我只希望自己可以被记得.. 有时我也想问问我在他们的心目中到底是怎么样的一个人.. 但想着想着, 还是不要好了....
这几天都睡得不好.. 老是失眠.. 也许是我想太多了吧! 头脑不停地出现画面.. 不停地有问题在缠绕着我.. 希望今天不会再这样了




心里还在挂念着你..曾经想过主动跟你聊一聊..但我想了很久..
还是不要好了.. 反正现在都各走各的了..我也觉得现在的你会比较快乐..
其实这样也很好吗.. 你留给我的也够多了.. 够我用这几个月来彻底忘记..

my first grand opening

it's been so long since i last blogged.. one year?..
looking back at my older posts.. i just felt i'm like an idiot.. yup. so i decided to delete all my past
let bygones be bygones right! :D i'm gonna live a new life..
but not now.. after os..
hmm.. so o lvls is like passing so fast? 2 more papers and it marks my FREEDOM!!!!!!
woot! ^^
even though i always say i won't miss kranji, i won't miss 2c'07, 4f'09, sjab etc etc..
but i definitely is 口是心非 de lar.. of course will miss everyone like crazy..
last monday i was studying for my history or what when i suddenly saw some cards or photos in my drawer. (ok maybe not suddenly)
can't explain my feelings and emotions when i saw those items.. unbelivable?
it was till then that i realize i've got so many frens and pple by my side that really care about me..
will elaborate on those next time. now is not the right time anyway :x
hmm.. anyway.. about os..
i crashed my ss and hist papers..
can't believe it ...........
what did i do to deserve this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just pray hard i can really secure that A1 or mrs ram will take a hammer and hit me :(
hcl was ruin too!! i lost like 20 marks liao the stupid zhong he tian kong!
:(((((((((
no more banner for me! :'(
the other papers were fine.. i hope they wun moderate too much cause many people complained the sci papers were too easy!! (some say can get full marks...?!!)
sigh. bio p1 tmr... give me the power!!!!!!!!!! ^^
anyway.. will be going to hk this dec for family trip.. 13-17 dec :D
atc 5-7 dec..
not going to missions cause it totally crash with my atc and the hk trip.
sry.. :(
had been MIA for rangers and service for almost a month!
yep.. i really anticipate to know about the worship debrief!! that was my first time being the worship leader.. kinda weird but i'm just a rookie!

hmm.. gonna study for bio p1 tomorrow.. lucky peeps only left 1 more paper!Q envious:D
gab is having her a lvls this few weeks.. HAHA i PLAY she STUDY!! cool! :P
i'm gonna rock the house!!!!!
okay seeya